Scott Schuman of The Sartorialist: What is the difference between fashion and style? “Style is more about people dressing well for their shape and personality. Overall, I’d say that style is consistency and fashion is made up of lots of soon-to-be-obsoletes. “

text msgs to myself

“i think i like pain and heartache. it only reminds me of how much we need God, because of how horrible we are. how we’re addicted to sin and how this is hard…”

“what i learned (this time around) is not about glorifying His name . not about all that -yay-whoppedoo.,.. but about second chances. and how we don’t deserve them. humbling. and knowing we can never do it on our own. that we’re always going to be screwed. we will always be in sin. only God can forgive”

7/24/09

texted this to myself last night while he sat next to me:

you know. did i subconsciously know he was a player all along but i once again chose not to heed it. it is unbelivable how playa he is. he has skills that i thought only existed in movies and fanfiction. i thought theres no way hes that good. that or. theres no way hes that malicious. but i guess so. . . then what am i doing. i already know i lost. i already know i can’t out play the player. then what am i holding on to. God will you still help me. i’m too weak for this. are we just this stupid all the time. why am i doing this. oh yeah thats right. im addicted to pain. to heartache .

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its that feeling deep in the pit of your stomach when you know you’re screwed but dont know what to do because you’re screwed anyways- and its that pain that eats you up from inside that makes you want to hurl and pinch out every nerve in your being. its beyond a *ML, because saying that- wont even help. its when you know. youre just in it deep.

you think you know how to read a person. and you think you know how to play the game. but its either you do or you dont. you cant play middle ground or you’ll end up getting played.

God is either giving me another chance at love, or he is testing to see if i’ll make the same mistake twice. Either way, I am an idiot.

cupid is the devil in disguise.

random jumblings @ 11 pm, because that is stranger than my jumblings at 3-4-5 am.

Work works me so hard i have no appetite to eat.
the food is good. but i just dont feel like eating. its a horrible feeling.

i feel like right now im in the middle of an exam, everything is great- know all the answers, but its like i dont know the most important part; like filling in my name, or using a 2B pencil instead of pen for scantron.

knowing my own weakness, but feeling powerless against it – sucks.
God help me.

being ignorant is not very fun. who said ignorant is bliss?! theyre just lazy

–

first week in hong kong has come and gone.

i dont even know what to say.

but i do need more prayer.

goodbye LA, hello HK

i wrote/scribbled/texted this: april 6 ?
“i dont know what to think when i see you work so hard. to be inspired? envious? jealous? to wish you the best? and what do i think when i look at my life. do i see potential. am i working anywhere near half as hard?”

…

its now June.

and so my ‘bosses’ accepted me to work/intern for them in HongKong doing ‘i dont know what’,  living in ‘i dont know where’.

i am mind blowingly excited

I’ll blog whenever I can about whatever adventures I have and about anything exciting that happens.

I’m already starting to miss you LA, but I’ve been missing you even longer Asia
my heart belongs to you.

Will Pan “Pas de Deux” MV

Will Pan “Pas de Deux”

i think i actually liked it. (well at least more than the MV with Akon) and i liked how he DIDNT KISS THE (korean) GIRL. hurray for chinese boy’s self control. AHAH.

totally wanted to go la-la-la with se7en and oKAy* with hyori